Past 4 weeks

For now, I don't think Saturdays will ever be the same. I always looked forward to them as our famiy days, days to get projects done, and when Norm would be home from work. Now, I watch the clock, remembering where we were four weeks ago. We got through the 4th Saturday.

The children (& us) are still having our ups and downs. We are eating as a "family" at the table now, but it is hard. There's usually tears after the prayer time. Right now it just seems a lot of life is mechanical. We do the things we have to. There's just that terrible ache and pain we have to work through, and seeing our children ache makes it that much worse.

I got a beautiful angel today I want to share with you. I hope the picture comes out well. A close friend of mine died almost two years ago. I still miss her so much. One of her other friends put this angel by her gravesite and I asked her where she got it from. Today I was blessed with it as a gift. It's on our piano for now, and will be put in between Angela & Matthew's gravesite in the spring.

Keep praying for our family. We thank you for your continued prayers, cards and e-mails. Don't stop!

~~Loni