Location: MICHIGAN, United States

Thank you for stopping by. It's my hope you find glimpses of my Savior interwoven thru my writings. I am the wife to one husband for over 25 years, a blessed mama to a dozen children, yes each born from me ~ two of which see Jesus face to face & ten at home, all of us yearning to see Jesus someday. We have been home educating for over 18 years with . . . well, another 15 years to go (the youngest is 3, the oldest 23!) I have walked through rejection, to continually learning I am CALLED, LOVED and forever KEPT by God - never, ever to be rejected by Jesus! (Jude 1:1) I've walked through deep sorrow to find that joy does come again, though the night may be long; I've witnessed God orchestrating miracles with my children still beyond my comprehension, & I am seeing new love forming as we begin a new road of older children finding life mates. My life has and is a journey, from the deepest, almost rock bottom pit, to stumbling through my faith and looking towards the ultimate climax of everlasting life in heaven. Will you be joining me here and there? ~ Loni

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Going on . . .

It's been a busy past week and a half and very hot here. I think we skipped our Michigan spring and practically went from winter to summer - with now, low 90 degree, humid weather. The kids have been running threw the sprinkler and having fun water fights! :)

We had several puppies in and out quickly with our puppy business, which was a blessing - but now we need more puppies, so pray someone calls us with a nice big, young litter! :) We had several graduations to go to this past Saturday. It was another bittersweet day, seeing people we had not seen in sometime. Most avoid mentioning anything about Matthew, which makes it hard. I think it hit Norm more, where other Christians just do not care more that for the superficial stuff. Here he lost his son - and there's no mention. I guess women talk better about emtional things, and several did say things to me. One person who had not seen Norm since well before Matthew died mentioned how he has aged. I did not really notice it until we got some pictures back from Katie's birthday on the 27th. I saw the sadness in his face. It makes my heart ache for my dear husband - and I know his pain, yet, it hurts even more to see him hurting. I think it's hit him more lately than it did at the beginning, and our doctor even told us it would be this way. I've seen more tears escape his eyes lately - just listening to a song, or rocking a little one. Pray for joy to begin to be restored in our home. During these times of being down, it's easy to let the non-important things seem important and let it become an issue.

I've also been struggling with lupus symptoms again. I was first diagnosed with lupus after our baby girl was stillborn 7 years ago. I often wonder if it was from the 3 blood transfussions I had to have to save my life because of the placenta abruption that took hers. Lupus is a hard disease to diagnose, as are most auto-immune diseases. It is something that somewhat goes in and out of remission. It has "flare-ups" and I am at that point again, which is common with this disease, when there is major stress. I guess I'd qualify for that. For me, at this point, the type of lupus I have is NOT life-threatening, which I am very thankful for. We'd appreciate your prayers for the flare-ups to subside and my energy and health to return.

Norm has a job interview tomorrow. A personnel service called - not sure where they found his resume, but we have sent so many out in the last several years. We have such mixed feelings about it. God is allowing us to make end meet with Norm home. He is not a lazy man, and keeps very busy from gardening to repairing lawnmowers to working on our remodeling, and pups seems to come along just when needed and the buyers come too. Something "seems" to come along at the right time for bills to be paid and needs being met (and wants too). Norm has such a burden to be a part of the children's lives, and knows we can make ends meet without working 40+ hours out of the home. Ideally it would be great if he could find a close part-time job, that would be "steady" income. But, he is going to check out this job tomorrow. We know if God wants him to take it, it will all fall into place. It is first shift which is a "requirement" after the many, many years of 2nd shift (and long nights for me).

Stephen also has a job interview on Friday at an automotive repair place. We are trying to encourage him to towards something part-time, as he has all his life to work many hours, and we want him to be able to study too for his automotive and welding classes in the fall.

So, there is always something going on here, decisions to make, and just the continual reminders of sadnesses, and still finding that "new normal". So, we take in a deep breath, continue, and are so thankful we know without a doubt, God has NOT left us or forsaken us!


Blogger Luke's Mom said...

Hi Loni,

Thank you for the newsie blog, it was good getting caught up on all you happenings. I continue to pray for you and it is good to have specific prayer requests.
Dear Precious Father, I pray right now that you will bring a joy unspeakable and full of glory to the VanderStel home, especially for Norm as he is feeling so down lately. I also pray that you will will be done on whethter this is the right job for Norm right now and you know what is best for Matthew, please give him wisdom to make the right choice about working. I pray that you will help them to get the remodeling done so that they can at least put that behind them. I also want to pray that tomorrow you will bring more puppies there way to sell. I thank you God that you hear us when we pray and I'm looking forward to hearing a good report next time Loni's writes. In Jesus Precious Name, AMEN.

Love in Christ,

6/09/2005 1:43 AM  
Blogger Teena said...

Dear Loni~ thank you for the update. My heart ached as I read about Norm and his sadness. I can not imagine but want you to know that you are in our prayers & thoughts. Thank you for sharing~

May God continue to give you strength daily....
in Him,
Teena mom to 1/2 dozen

6/09/2005 10:09 PM  

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