Location: MICHIGAN, United States

Thank you for stopping by. It's my hope you find glimpses of my Savior interwoven thru my writings. I am the wife to one husband for over 25 years, a blessed mama to a dozen children, yes each born from me ~ two of which see Jesus face to face & ten at home, all of us yearning to see Jesus someday. We have been home educating for over 18 years with . . . well, another 15 years to go (the youngest is 3, the oldest 23!) I have walked through rejection, to continually learning I am CALLED, LOVED and forever KEPT by God - never, ever to be rejected by Jesus! (Jude 1:1) I've walked through deep sorrow to find that joy does come again, though the night may be long; I've witnessed God orchestrating miracles with my children still beyond my comprehension, & I am seeing new love forming as we begin a new road of older children finding life mates. My life has and is a journey, from the deepest, almost rock bottom pit, to stumbling through my faith and looking towards the ultimate climax of everlasting life in heaven. Will you be joining me here and there? ~ Loni

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Working on Gravestone

We have been working with Norm's cousin on Matthew's gravestone and how we want it to look. We thought we had it pretty much settled, and then started showing the children. Like I mentioned in my last post, seeing it "etched in stone" makes the reality more real, once again. Seeing that birth AND death date, hits at the heart. But we were surprised by one of our boys last night. Jayson (15.5) saw the design and really liked it. But then he began questioning how big it was going to be compared to Angela's little gravestone. Hers is just a small flat light pink-toned marker. Simple. We were planning on having Matthew's a little bigger, mainly so we could fit more wording on, yet still flat, with a slight tilt to it. Gravestones are expensive. The one we are planning on is over $600 and this is a "low cost" one. We had a friend over at the time too, when we were talking about this, and Jayson called me aside, and with tears in his eyes pleaded to have something bigger for his brother, that can be seen more, and may some other Bible verse on it. I told him that financially, we just cannot do that, and he said he has $300 saved up and he'd be willing to give us that to get more of a stand up type. He really wants this. It just touched Norm's and my hearts so much. It's not that he wants a "material" thing, but really wants his loved brother remembered. Prayfully Jayson and his siblings will visit this cemetary many years after we are gone, and he will be able to tell his children about Matthew and the many wonderful memories. We still are not exactly sure what we are going to do, and have to personally visit the monument company to see the variety, and what we can do, and Jayson especially wants to go. It just touched our hearts.

What we have planned so far, is of course, Matthew's full name, birth/death dates, and we have two lines from the MercyMe song, "I Can Only Imagine"on it (here are the words to the song) . Matthew does not "imagine" anymore, so we are using "Surrounded by God's Glory" and "Forever Worshipping Him". You can see our "rough draft" but it's a little fuzzy but you can get the general idea.

It's been neat though to see our children involved, and probably part of the healing, and working with us on this.

On January 23, just a week after our boys' truck accident, our pastor spoke from Joshua 24, and the 27th verse really stuck out to me, and I marked in my Bible and "claimed" after their accident, also goes along with "Matthew's story":

"Joshua said to all the people,
'Behold, this stone shall be for a witness against us,
for it has heard all the words of the Lord which He spoke to us;
thus it shall be for a witness against you, so that you do not deny your God.' "

I thought often of this verse after the boys' accident, and how God's mercy and grace let them not only live, yet come out remarkably well. We have so much to thank God for. Then, as I mentioned before there was just an accident at the same corner, and several were killed. We go by this intersection to and from church, and see the crosses and flowers there now in memory of those that were killed. After our pastor shared this verse and spoke of it, I wished we could put a big billboard up there, giving God the glory for saving their lives - our "stone as a witness". But, now with working on Matthew's gravestone, it's another type of witness, which he would want, and we certainly want. Despite all that has happened, we won't deny God. Matthew's stone will be as a witness until God makes the new earth.


Blogger Teena said...

Dear Loni, just stopping by... catching up.. it has been a few days since I came to "journaling through the valley" ~ my heart still hurts with all of you. I am praying as you plan out the grave stone. I so appreciate how you share everything going on. I am still praying....
our love,
Teena wife to Billy
mom to 1/2 dozen

4/14/2005 10:41 PM  
Blogger Teena said...

Loni, just looked at the stone~ I love it... so beautiful. I love the words and the bible ....

so very special~


4/14/2005 10:44 PM  
Blogger Jeff H said...

Loni, again your words cut through the fog of daily life and shine a burning light of clarity into my eyes and heart.

I love that song by Mercy Me: I sang it as a solo, accompanied by guitar only, a couple of years ago during our morning worship service. As I have come to deal more openly with the loss of my father in 1998 to Parkinson's Disease, many songs to which I am drawn speak of our life to come with Jesus in Heaven, along with all those who've gone on before us. What a day that will be, when my Jesus I shall see, when I look into his face...

4/15/2005 9:20 PM  
Blogger Loni said...

Jeff - your words remind me of the song we sang at our stillborn daughter's funeral service - "Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth shall grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace."


4/15/2005 10:24 PM  
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