Journaling Through the Valley . . . and finding JOY in the morning!
About Me
- Name: ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
- Location: MICHIGAN, United States
Thank you for stopping by. It's my hope you find glimpses of my Savior interwoven thru my writings. I am the wife to one husband for over 25 years, a blessed mama to a dozen children, yes each born from me ~ two of which see Jesus face to face & ten at home, all of us yearning to see Jesus someday. We have been home educating for over 18 years with . . . well, another 15 years to go (the youngest is 3, the oldest 23!) I have walked through rejection, to continually learning I am CALLED, LOVED and forever KEPT by God - never, ever to be rejected by Jesus! (Jude 1:1) I've walked through deep sorrow to find that joy does come again, though the night may be long; I've witnessed God orchestrating miracles with my children still beyond my comprehension, & I am seeing new love forming as we begin a new road of older children finding life mates. My life has and is a journey, from the deepest, almost rock bottom pit, to stumbling through my faith and looking towards the ultimate climax of everlasting life in heaven. Will you be joining me here and there? ~ Loni
Friday, March 31, 2006
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Thankful Thursday
for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." I Thessalonians 5:18 What I am, thankful for this week I am thankful for the bright sunshine today and the warm breeze that is finally warming up the outdoors. For MAKE-A-WISH that granted us with a wonderful trip to Disney several years ago and CONTINUES to grant wishes to ill children AND special outings throughout the years for all families. God's provisions - more puppies coming in and Norm's small engine repair business seems to be picking up. Links to other Thankful Thursday Posts If you participate, leave your link in the comments and I'll post it below. Click here for the Thankful Thursday code |
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
No Attachment Included
The espresso machine isn't working lately. I've been shopping for a new one. I've compared prices and features and have spent way too much time on the whole process. I may be stalling. You see, I've looked everywhere and no one sells one that includes Elena as an attachment to help me brew coffee in the morning.
It did not include Matthew as an attachment to do our grilling.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
BOOK REVIEW: Lord, Please Meet Me in the Laundry Room
"This book is about spending some time together sorting through the things that get in the way of finding joy in motherhood. It's about getting real about the past and mistakes we've made . . . about seizing each day, squeezing every bit of joy from every peanut-butter-and-jelly-smeared moment, finding God in the hum of a washing machine or an unexpected bargain."
Finding joy again . . . it's what I need more of. I read on. My heart was already moved.
Her laundry room became her "prayer closet". She was searching for where she could go to be alone with God and pray. She was asking God this while sorting through laundry, and God pressed it on her heart she IS praying, she IS having quiet time. It's made me think of my laundry room. I think it will help me to look forward to doing my laundry more - praying for my children as I go through their clothes, and being thankful for quiet time there.
I could relate to so much - from a child arriving at church with no shoes on to leaving a child behind at church. She spoke of how we moms worry about perfection - worry about how we look, how our children behave (or don't behave), and how we can pull ourselves down just in this thinking. With encouragement she says "we need to stop running from our worries and start running toward God. He's the only one we can trust to accept us as we are - even when we can barely accept ourselves. He won't push us aside to reach for the most perfect and spotless specimen behind. "
God has impressed on my heart a lot lately, the verse, “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose” (Rom. 8:28). Sometimes this verse would really make me cringe, especially if someone would say this, that would not really know what we are going through. Barbara shared this verse too . . . and showed how good did come together, even from mistakes, sin, and pain. She is a "real" person, with "real" problems, and shares her heart, even when she was ready to give up and run away from it all. She did not come from a perfect upbringing, nor did she have a role model of a mother, and yet, she found the Lord as her Savior, and God showed her how even her mistakes can bring glory to Him. After she was saved, she found how the things she did wrong, God brought joy from it, starting out with her first child that was conceived before she was married, which made her and her husband commit to marriage, and eventually finding God. They don't hide the date. It shows her how God was working with them from the very beginning.
Her writing is personal, and for a purpose - to encourage her readers. She really does care for them. She wishes she could take their hands and and say:
"May God bless your motherhood as He has mine. May He give you the courage to see your mistakes and the assurance that He can use every one of them to His advantage. May He give you a vision of the glory of your motherhood, so that even while doing the lowliest tasks, you will not forget the privilege of your calling."
Monday, March 27, 2006
Let's Get Real Monday
My sister (left); me right
Saturday, March 25, 2006
AWANA Boat Regatta
Benjamin (with yellow flag over his face) watching his boat take off.
Katie & Melody with their boats. Katie's won a 3rd place ribbon. Melody got a "sympathy" ribbon. Another kid felt bad for her and gave his to her. :)
Heather got 2nd place for her boat design.
Heidi got 2nd place in the boat race.
Bethany (almost 3!) & I did not go to the race. We slept in. Bethany has a cold. We've never had one of our children say this before because of a stuffy nose: "My nose doesn't work". Poor babe.
Friday, March 24, 2006
Manwich
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
In Memory of My Mom
Monday, March 20, 2006
CANDACE JOY LEFT HOSPITAL TODAY!!!
We are are rejoicing with the Walsh family and especially for Candace as she left the hospital today to go HOME!!! Read their update and see the new pictures!
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Poem - Suffering
Am I all alone in this place?
For I have looked; yes I have sought You,
I look within; and I bow in shame,
For once again my actions have denied Your sacred name.
In this dark storm I am tossed around.
As the waves hit me, I panic as I begin to cry out.
Lord I need You, I’m in agony!
My life is lost, as I cry and as I start to weep.
The Lord says to me; "Son, take my hand.
Don’t look down at the ground son,
I will rescue you, I will not leave.
All you need to do is hold onto Me in all your suffering.
Hold onto Me in all your suffering
Hold onto Me for I will never leave".
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Thankful Thursday
for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." I Thessalonians 5:18 What I am, thankful for this week Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. (Lam. 3:22-23) New every morning . . . not some mornings . . . not most mornings . . . EVERY morning! We can start over . . . it's a new day. I am so thankful for this. Lord, Please Meet Me in the Laundry Room book by Barbara Curtis - I am thankful for this book I just read. It was such an encouragement to me from the very first page - and just what I needed to read. It was definitely a "God thing". I will be writing a review on it later. We had a wonderful discussion with our oldest son tonight, and it's so neat to see his maturity & growing into a responsible young man with convictions and God-driven goals. I am thankful again for God's provisions - this week it is 9 little puppies to adopt into homes (the pups pictured with our girls yesterday). Links to other Thankful Thursday Posts If you participate, leave your link in the comments and I'll post it below. Click here for the Thankful Thursday code |
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
BOOK REVIEW: Life is a Buffet So Save Room For DESSERT
This is a true life story that happened to the author, Polly D. Boyette, in her book, Life is a Buffet So Save Room for Dessert. She then uses the verse from Psalm 90:8 "You have set our iniquities before You, our secret sins in the light of Your presence" to make an application to our lives. Stories are told throughout this book of the author, who is called Polly D by family and friends, her sister Robbie Lee (whose name is actually Robin Lynn) and her mother whose real name is AC (no, the letters to not stand for anything - this is her actual name). The two sisters live together, and their mother moved in with them after their father died. She says in the introduction of her book, "Perhaps the main purpose of this book is to encourage others to appreciate their families, even with all their annoying, stressful, demanding and sometimes embarrassing characteristics. Life does not offer us many choices. Even though we didn't get to choose our family, we can make the choice to find the lighter side of family life. You can choose laughter." She goes on to share that yes, life has it's difficulties, and things that are hard to laugh at - such as the death of her brother to cancer, yet, she can look back at the good times they had together, and laugh at it.
Monday, March 13, 2006
BOOK REVIEW: The Witness by Dee Henderson
I have read several of Dee Henderson's books, and though I feel personally that some of her other books were even more captivating than The Witness, it was very good. I do not want to tell too much of the story line, because you will find right away there is a "family secret" that begins to unravel and relationships begin to develop. This is a mystery including several murders that take place, and finding out how they seem to be interwoven together. I found the beginning of the book more intriguing and kept my attention more.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
POEM - When All Else Fails
When All Else Fails
When times are tough and things get out of hand
When you are scared to death and no longer can stand
When things get chaotic and fear grips your soul
When you feel you are lost and cannot be consoled
When your vision is blurred and you no longer can see
Because of the tears swelling inside as you weep
When all is against you and you cannot go on
And you feel you will die as you feel all is gone
Do not cast away all the things that you know
Don't think God's not there; that He's left you alone
We know God is for us; His word tells us so
He will not forsake us; no matter where we go
Our feelings will tell us that God hates our guts
But if we listen to feelings, they will drive us all nuts
For our feelings are contrary to the truth in God's word
Our feelings will lie and will twist what's occurred
Let God be true and every man a liar
Is a Scripture to cling to; when we are in the fire
Our feelings deceive us; they shift just like sand
But Gods word is eternal; on it we can stand
So please be encouraged as you go through this storm
Your life is what the Lord wants to use and transform
Don't throw in the towel though you weep and you wail
For God is still with you; even when all else fails!
Written by Bill Scott, Sr.
Candace - INFECTION IN HIP
Candace's mom: "Yesterday it was confirmed that this flesh eating,bone eating,bacteria has now entered Candaces right hip and is quite extensive. The bone involvement extends the illness for a long period of timeas reaching the bone with medication is much more involved. AlsoCandace's methidone treatments will be starting today." More on their webpage.
Please continue to pray for this precious little girl and family.
And, by the way, the picture shown is Candace with her older brother, Patrick & his wife Hannah, whom we know from when they lived here.
You may also use this below to put on your blog or webpage and please link to her webpage http://www.candacejoy.org/:
Friday, March 10, 2006
The Kitchen Meme
2. How many cookbooks do you own? 30+ I did not include many of my "Quick Cooking" magazines.
3. How often do you refer to a cookbook each week? Several times a week. One of my daughters does almost on a daily basis, trying out new bread recipes.
4. Do you collect recipes from other sources? Yes - many from magazines. I will ask for recipes, and will find some on websites, or look up something on the internet I might be interested in making.
5. How do you store those recipes? We have a photo album we keep many in. Some that I make over and over and don't have memorized, or want my kids to make, are taped inside my cupboard.
6. When you cook, do you follow the recipe pretty closely, or do you use recipes primarily to give you ideas? The first time I do, but then will make changes if I make it again. If it is baking desserts, I follow it much more closely, but if it is something like a crock-pot meal, I will change it esp. if I don't have a certain ingredient.
7. Is there a particular ethnic style or flavor that predominates in your cooking? No
8. What's your favorite kitchen task related to meal planning and preparation? Tasting!
9. What's your least favorite part? The clean-up!
10. Do you plan menus before you shop? Not generally, though I go in spurts with this. We go a lot by what is on sale, and work our meals with this.
11. What are your three favorite kitchen tools or appliances? CrockPot, Bosch Universal Stand mixer/blender and a Zojirushi 2 pound bread machine.
12. If you could buy one new thing for your kitchen, money was no object, and space not an issue, what would you most like to have? I would love to have a stove/oven that is almost double the normal size - more than 4 burners and two ovens - but now I am dreaming too much!
13. Since money and space probably are objects, what are you most likely to buy next? We need a new under-the-cupboard electric can opener.
14. Do you have a separate freezer for storage? Yes - 2!
15. Grocery shop alone or with others? With dh.
16. How many meatless main dish meals do you fix in a week? 2-3
17. If you have a decorating theme in your kitchen, what is it? Favorite kitchen colors? I collect Pfaltzgraff Naturewood pattern, and have somewhat the "potted herbs" theme on my wallpaper, and sage green color.
18. What's the first thing you ever learned to cook, and how old were you? Scrambled eggs - probably around age 14.
19. How did you learn to cook? I learned some watching my mom, though I rarely did anything in her kitchen. I lived with a family for a year before dh & I were married, and learned a lot from her, and then it was trial and error after I was married (and still is!).
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Thankful Thursday
for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." I Thessalonians 5:18 What I am, thankful for this week My husband & children - the joy for getting up every morning. (ok . . . most mornings . . .sometimes it would be better to stay in bed!) "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.” Rev. 21:4 The little joys God continually blesses us with - such as this week, 4 little kittens being born to our children's mama cat and they saw the miracle of birth - and it helped heal some hurts too. Shortly after Matthew died, our other cat died while birthing her kittens. This was a great joy this week for them. Links to other Thankful Thursday Posts If you participate, leave your link in the comments and I'll post it below. Click here for the Thankful Thursday code |
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
UPDATES . . .
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Who Needs a Shower?
All that we’re asking the team to do is be willing to visit the target blog within 24 hours of receiving the Shower Alert, leave an encouraging comment - preferably enhanced with Scripture - and pray for that blogger while you are on their blog. (that way you won’t forget to pray for them! Or am I the only one who has that problem?) So what will happen is that the blogger will be flooded with encouraging comments and prayers - a Shower of Blessings!
Monday, March 06, 2006
I Will Wait
"Let us not be weary in well doing,
for in due season we shall reap,
if we faint not."
"So run, that ye may obtain."
In the bitter waves of woe
Beaten and tossed about
By the sullen winds that blow
From the desolate shores of doubt,
Where the anchors that faith has cast
Are dragging in the gale,
I am quietly holding fast
To the things that cannot fail.
And fierce though the fiends may fight,
And long though the angels hide,
I know that truth and right
Have the universe on their side;
And that somewhere beyond the stars
Is a love that is better than fate.
When the night unlocks her bars
I shall see Him--and I will wait.
--Washington Gladden
Saturday, March 04, 2006
EMERGENCY UPDATE ON CANDACE
BACK IN PICU. EMERGENCY PRAYER REQUEST 3/4/06 10:06 AM
Candace has been up all evening with violent symptoms of vomiting, hot, cold shakes and thrashing. It is thought at this time to be drastic withdrawal symptoms to the heavy narcotics she was on for so long. Many tests are going on currently and we will update you later today. Please pass this request on to others who pray.
In Christ,
Cathy
Friday, March 03, 2006
Our Short Stories
"Live well.
Missey did just that. Passionately so.
Yesterday, March 1st, Missey, home educating Mama to 4, swollen with the hope of babe #5, got up and blogged about her day. A day just like any other day:
I have another ultrasound, dr. visit, and non-stress test today so I will update y’all this evening. So far things have been going well.
Missey didn’t update us. Missey is now home with Jesus. For various reasons, at that scheduled doctor’s appointment, the doctor decided it best for Missey to have the baby….and within an hour of birthing beautiful daughter number 4 (babe #5) a bloodclot ushered Missey from the waiting room on this side…. into the forever, never-ending drama of eternity. Please pray for 3 little girls who miss their Mama, a little boy who will hardly remember his Mama, one tiny Mama-less newborn…and one man who just wants to hold his bride again….all cupped in the hollow of one caring Father’s hand.
Live well, ladies. Write your stories with gusto, passion, and fervency. We all only write short stories.
Galatians 6:10 Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people....
What good can I do today? If today were my last….and it just might be….what good would I do? Anyone I need to pick up the phone and call—and leave with the right words? What would my last writing entry say? What is one thing I would choose to do—-with those precious kids He’s given? And with that grand man to whom I promised “until death do we part”?
I’d better do it. Today might be all I have. And you?"
I know another mom, who could have easily had a story cut short too. She was pregnant with her 8th child - and taking another child in for a doctor's check-up. She almost cancelled the appointment because of sick children at home and was quite short with her children and snapped at several of them as she was leaving. Her children and husband saw her leave upset - but let her go. She wanted to make sure the child she was taking to the doctor was ok. She had contractions all the way to the doctor's office - but did not think it unusual. Just barely sitting in the doctor's office, she thought her water had broken - only to find out she was hemorhaging. This doctor's office was right next to the hospital, and she was rushed there to learn that her baby in her had died because of a placenta abruption and her life was in great danger. The doctor was very concerned about a c-section with how much blood she had already lost and was trying for an induction to work, which it did not. Her husband just barely made it to the hospital as her blood pressure dropped, and she was rushed for out for an emergency c-section to save her life. This Christian doctor sensed the family's love for children and though he was not able to save the baby within her, he was able to, with God's help, to save this mother, and save her womb so she would be able to have more children. He sat by her bedside for many hours just in case she hemorhaged again. She was later told had she been at home and this happened, she would not have lived. It was devestating to this family to lose their precious little girl, they named Angela Hope. They were able to give her a beautiful funeral service and honor her short brief life. Several weeks later as the parents were saying prayers with their children before they went to sleep, their second oldest son, Matthew, said with tears in his eyes, "Mommy, I am so glad you did not die that day, because you were mad when you left, and that would have been bad if you died and you left us with being mad at us all."
Yes, my heart melted, and tears flowed - not then for the baby I never got to know on earth, but for the pain I caused in my children, and for joy that God gave me another chance - and to make things right. It was definitely all planned out by God to be at the right place, at the right time, with the right doctor. And, it's something I try to remember now - what are our good-byes like? How many times should we turn around or get out of bed, and make things right? The story of Missey above, could have been me 8 years ago. How would my children have remembered me? What if my story . . . or your story on earth was to end today, how would the last chapter read?
There is a photo of Missey and a tribute set up at HomeSchoolBlogger.Com where you can learn a little more about her. They also have an address to send cards to the family. You can also read her obituary here.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
A Glimpse of our Homeschooling
Candace Update