Journaling Through the Valley . . . and finding JOY in the morning!
About Me
- Name: ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
- Location: MICHIGAN, United States
Thank you for stopping by. It's my hope you find glimpses of my Savior interwoven thru my writings. I am the wife to one husband for over 25 years, a blessed mama to a dozen children, yes each born from me ~ two of which see Jesus face to face & ten at home, all of us yearning to see Jesus someday. We have been home educating for over 18 years with . . . well, another 15 years to go (the youngest is 3, the oldest 23!) I have walked through rejection, to continually learning I am CALLED, LOVED and forever KEPT by God - never, ever to be rejected by Jesus! (Jude 1:1) I've walked through deep sorrow to find that joy does come again, though the night may be long; I've witnessed God orchestrating miracles with my children still beyond my comprehension, & I am seeing new love forming as we begin a new road of older children finding life mates. My life has and is a journey, from the deepest, almost rock bottom pit, to stumbling through my faith and looking towards the ultimate climax of everlasting life in heaven. Will you be joining me here and there? ~ Loni
Monday, January 30, 2006
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Prayer Shawl
"For it was you who formed my inward parts, you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; that I know very well."
Psalm 139:13-14
[For those] [u]ndergoing medical procedures; as a comfort after a loss, during bereavement, prayer or meditation, commitment or marriage ceremonies, birthing, nursing a baby; as a bridal shower gift; leading ritual; first menses or croning rites of passage, during an illness and recovery; ministering to others or just socializing...There are endless possibilities! To make a shawl personal, the giver or the recipient may want to adorn the shawl with beads, shells, feathers and charms. A blessing or ritual maybe offered when the gift is presented.
1. Begin by focusing on Jesus Christ. Thank God for His love and goodness toward the person you are praying for while making the shawl. Thank Jesus for His plan for good to happen in this persons life. Thank and praise the Lord for Jesus Christ's death on the cross and the Holy Spirit's presence as you knit or crochet. Visualize Jesus sitting with you as you make the shawl. See the person being held in His arms and feel the love they share.
2. Thank the Lord for the person. Have good thoughts about the person and focus on the potential for healing, for a quality life and believe that the person will be restored, healthy, and complete in God's time. Lift whatever needs the person has to the Lord in prayer.
3. Intercede for the person. Sometimes words are not enough and I sit with the Lord and simply hold the person before the Lord. Ask the Lord to guide you as you pray and knit or crochet. Pray for blessing on the person. Pray for strength and courage in the person's life and in the lives of loved ones. Pray for comfort and healing and for the doctors, nurses, and all who take care of the person. Pray for whatever need the person has in life. Let the Lord lead you and pray whatever Jesus lays on your heart.
4. Pray for the person to draw closer to Jesus and if the person is not a believer, pray for salvation. In your mind's eye see this person turning to Jesus and walking into the arms of God. Pray for the Holy Spirit to lead the person to Jesus Christ and for the person to be open to the Lord. Pray for this one's heart to receive Jesus as Lord and Savior.
5. Keep praying - you can pray for one area that needs prayer over and over as you feel led. Sometimes you may feel led to pray for one area of life, such as healing of memories, or for blessing on the relationships in the family. Persevere in prayer and remember that God's purposes for the person are usually accomplished in the person's mind and heart as well as with the physical body. Pray that nothing can stop the working of the Lord on the mind and heart or on the healing of the body.
6. Be encouraged! God does not call you to pray in vain. Pray! Believe and praise the Lord till the answer comes. Even if you do not see or feel any changes in the life of the person, pray on! The Lord Jesus Christ will work in real and unexpected ways.
7. When you complete the prayer shawl, pray over it. Make a prayer link with the yarn from the shawl and keep the link to pray over often. Anoint the prayer shawl with a prayer of blessing for the person before it is given to them.
8. Trust the Lord to continue to work through the shawl when it leaves your hands. Visualize the shawl being given to the person and see Jesus wrap the person with the shawl. See the love and healing power in the prayers that are woven into the shawl. Now let go and let the Lord do the work in the person's life.
What is a Prayer Shawl? Throughout the ages, shawls have come to symbolize shelter, peace and spiritual sustenance. Since the inception of the Prayer Shawl Ministry in 1998, the members of this ecumenical organization have lovingly donated their time and talents by creating hand-knitted and crocheted shawls for those in need. What started as a grass-roots movement has quickly grown into an international cause, with countless numbers of shawls being given to grateful recipients around the globe.The Ministry's message of caring is simple, universal and enduring. And we have seen time and again that the creation and presentation of a prayer shawl, like all acts of generosity, enriches the giver as well as the recipient.
ADDITIONAL PATTERNS:
- Prayer Shawl Free pattern from Bonnie Franz Designs
- Prayer Shawl Patterns
- Lots of patterns here for shawls (not necesarrily "prayer" shawls, but "any" shawl can be a prayer shawl, if you are praying and dedicating it for that)
- Prayer Shawl Knitting Loom (!!)
I am adding to this a little later because I have just found this so inspiring. Another mom gave me an idea with making one for each of my daughters and making sure I have left over yarn. Then, making one for myself, using the leftover yarns so I have representation of each of my girls. I just thought that was neat. (02-02-06)
Friday, January 27, 2006
Another Good Report! :)
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Poem - WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING
(Written by a former child)
A message every adult should read, because children
are watching you and doing as you do, not as you say.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator,
and I immediately wanted to paint another one.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you feed a stray cat, and
I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you make my favorite cake for me and
I learned that the little things can be the special things in life.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I heard you say a prayer,
and I knew there is a God I could always talk to
and I learned to trust in God.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick,
and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you give of your time and money
to help people who had nothing
and I learned that those who have something should give to those who don't.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it
and I learned we have to take care of what we are given.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw how you handled your responsibilities,
even when you didn't feel good and
I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw tears come from your eyes and
I learned that sometimes things hurt,
but it's all right to cry.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw that you cared and I wanted to be everything that I could be.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I learned most of life's lessons that I need to know
o be a good and productive person when I grow up.
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I looked at you and wanted to say,
"Thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn't looking."
Monday, January 23, 2006
Good Report! PTL!
Thanks so much for all the nice notes & FOR PRAYING!!
Please Pray
but God is the strength of my heart
Sunday, January 22, 2006
In Memory & Sanctity of LIFE Sunday
In Loving Memory
Angela Hope
born still
January 22, 1998
To think,
the first face
she saw
and beheld
was Jesus.
We can only imagine!
Today is also Sanctity of Life Sunday. 33 years ago today Roe vs. Wade made abortion, legal. Murder, legal? Possibly had it been "40 some years" ago that it had been made legal, I would not be here. My birth mom thankfully, chose life for me. I was adopted when I was 6 months old.
The most dangerous place in the world is the womb. Pre-born babies are being killed in their mother's wombs at a greater rate than any other section of society. The mortality rate of pre-born babies varies from 1 in 4 to 1 in 3. That is, less than every 24 seconds an unborn baby dies.
Since 1973 more than 48 million babies have been aborted.
Lamentation
("Rachel, weeping for her children...")
Incarnation
No lullabies in joyous hearts
sung to unseen ears,
No mother’s gentle crooning
soothes these unborn babies' fears.
No glad anticipation
of what this child will be -
the future he will never have,
the triumphs she’ll not see.
Slaughter
These builders, artists, scientists,
formed to make a better day -
That plan will never come to pass:
their lives got in the way.
Wrong Sex, Wrong Time, Wrong Parent -
Is that reason to kill?
Convenience ends the lullaby,
though a heart is waiting still...
For a young voice calling "Mama?"
For the footsteps in the hall.
For a yard with dirt instead of grass,
for the crayon marks on the wall.
Sorrow
We're measured and found wanting
for those allowed to die
on the altar of convenience
while we passively stand by.
"A person's right to choose,"
we're told, "Stands above all else.
Besides, it's hurting no one,
since we're doing it so well."
"A truly victimless affair,
a blob of tissue, bit of hair,
a little pain, then life again
for someone in despair."
"No lasting harm, no ill effects
arise from this," we're told.
But tell that to the couple
with no child to ever hold.
Pathos
As for this aging nation,
Searching everywhere for youth
to keep the country moving -
it's time we heard the Truth.
Our leaders came, and were despised --
the timing wasn't right.
So one of three, we sent them off
into an early night.
These builders, artists, scientists,
formed to make a better day
Never lived to see God's plans fulfilled,
their lives got in the way.
So tell the nation's hopeless,
who lay dying of disease,
who wait for the discovery
that will give their lives some ease,
That the inconvenient timing
of the one to cure their ill
resulted in an early death -
it is OURSELVES we kill.
Written by Poignant Musings
for Sanctity of Life 1/23/05
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Pro-Life Poem
Mommy keep me warm,
Handle me with all your love,
Mommy keep me from harm.
I’m only six weeks old today,
This birthday gift to me,
A pair of bright blue eyes,
That someday you will see.
I’ve barely got ears,
A little puppy nose,
and at the end of my feet,
Little things called toes.
Looking forward to my life,
toys, teddy bears, snails,
and long fairy tales.
Where are we going mommy,
in a bath, on a bus ride or,
perhaps far away.
Where are we going
How funny it feels passing through doors,
people dressed in green,
if they hurt you mommy just scream.
What’s happening mommy,
I’m starting to cry,
Mommy come quickly,
they’re making me die,
Killing me quickly,
Pulling me apart,
everything inside of me
even my heart.
Bye mommy, good-bye
But how I wanted to see
the grass, the trees,
hear a sweet song,
feel a sweet breeze.
Bye mommy
good-bye
I love you
I really do
I just wish you could love me too.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
SNOW DAY!
and I shall be
whiter than snow.
Make me to hear joy and gladness . . ."
Psalm 51:7b - 8a
Picture taken by our daughter today of the beautiful snow!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
BOOK REVIEW: Help! Mom! There are Liberals Under My Bed!
Monday, January 16, 2006
Have you heard of Salvia Divinorum? WARNING!
Where's the bubble wrap to keep them safe and the wood to build fences around our house? Unfortunately, it won't work. We need to keep hedging our children with our prayers.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
A Lasting Testimony . . .
I have thoroughly enjoyed my deeper Scripture study in these past weeks. I've always tried to keep up with "devotions" and read something along with a devotional book, but this has been different. It's been the challenge of reading through the Bible, and really understanding and digging deeper. I am by no means a Bible scholar, but just want to share things that have enriched me.
While we may decry the “high cost of death,” let me suggest that some may overreact to burial costs in such a way as to affect their Christian testimony. Unbelievers, who see no life after death, no resurrection, may well dispose of the body as cheaply and irreverently as possible. The Christian should give serious thought to this, however.
It is our hope that both Angela and Matthew's gravestones can be a lasting testimony for the Lord. We put a lot of thought into what went on their stones, to represent their lives and give God glory. I think this is what Abraham did too. He had a testimony with dealing with the people of Canan. And as we often hear said, what we are living now can be our epitat.
Angela's gravestone we had a lot of children's songs/hymns sung at her service and she is God's little lamb. We chose the wording at the bottom, "Little ones to Him belong" (with the actual notes at the top).
Matthew's gravestone, has a lot of little part's of his life - he wore several rings with either the fish or cross symbols on them. He could not just come out and share his faith at work, but if someone asked him, then he could. There were several that did! He wanted a new Bible for Christmas, which we buried with him, and his favorite sone was from MercyMe, "I can only imagine" which the words from the top & bottom are from.
Also, is the gravestones of my husband's grandparents, which I find one of the most amazing testimonies and such honor to his grandpa and grandma. You can click the pictures to see them in more detail.
This is Norm's grandparent's gravestones. If you click the picture above, you can see more detail. The monument on the right, for his grandma, is a young picture of her, with her 12 children around her, which was drawn by Norm's mom.
Monday, January 09, 2006
God's Compassion
I love another verse in II Peter 2:7-9a, comparing God’s compassion for Lot of to the compassion for us, and it also shows that despite his failings, Lot was a believer:
And if He rescued righteous Lot, oppressed by the sensual conduct of unprincipled men (for by what he saw and heard that righteous man, while living among them, felt his righteous soul tormented day after day by their lawless deeds), then the Lord knows how to rescue the godly from temptation . . .
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Family Update . . .
Where were you when things began to unfold with the West Virginia coal miners? I had gotten an e-mail shortly after midnight with the heading saying "Miracle for 12 of the miners". I told Norm and we turned to CNN and watched the rejoicing, singing, tears, and then the woman with 2 children going to one of the reporters and saying 11 were actually dead. I thought at first this woman was making something up for national attention. It was unbelieveable. But, again, God allows these for some reason to happen. One of the miners that died, Jackie Weaver, was a believer, and would always write "Jesus saves" in the coal dust of his mine car as he and colleagues descended into the mine. The family planned to family planned to bury him next to his son, who died as a child about 20 years ago in a motorcycle accident. His wife said "He was a Christian, so I am not worried. . . I know I'll see him again . . . Eternity is forever. Our time here is just a vapor." The minister for this funeral service urged worshippers not to look for someone to blame. Instead, worshippers should imagine they had only 10 hours to live, and write a note about how they would spend those final hours."
Friday, January 06, 2006
Pray for author, pastor JOHN PIPER
On Thursday or Friday the Bethlehem Baptist Church family will receive a letter from John Piper explaining that he has been diagnosed with prostate cancer.The letter in its entirety is reprinted below. I know that he would appreciate the prayers of faithful saints before the throne of grace.
Tuesday, January 3, 2006
Dear Bethlehem Family,
I hope this letter will encourage your prayer, strengthen your hope, and minister peace. I am writing with the blessing of the other elders to help you receive the news about my prostate cancer.
At my annual urological exam on Wednesday, December 21, the doctor felt an abnormality in the prostate and suggested a biopsy. He called the next day with the following facts: 1) cancer cells were found in two of the ten samples and the estimate is that perhaps 5% of the gland is affected; 2) my PSA count was 1.6, which is good (below 4 is normal); 3) the Gleason score is 6 (signaling that the cancer is not aggressive). These three facts incline the doctor to think that it is unlikely that the cancer has spread beyond the prostate, and that it is possible with successful treatment to be cancer-free.
Before going with Noël to consult in person with the doctor on December 29 about treatment options, I shared this news with the Bethlehem staff on Tuesday morning, December 27, and with the elders that evening. Both groups prayed over me for healing and for wisdom in the treatment choices that lie before us. These were sweet times before the throne of grace with much-loved colleagues.
All things considered, Noël and I believe that I should pursue the treatment called radical prostatectomy, which means the surgical removal of the prostate. We would ask you to pray that the surgery be completely successful in the removal of all cancer and freedom from possible side effects.
With the approval of the executive staff and elder leadership, we are planning surgery in early February. The recovery time is about three weeks before returning to a slow work pace, and six weeks to be back to all normal activities.
This news has, of course, been good for me. The most dangerous thing in the world is the sin of self-reliance and the stupor of worldliness. The news of cancer has a wonderfully blasting effect on both. I thank God for that. The times with Christ in these days have been unusually sweet.
For example, is there anything greater to hear and believe in the bottom of your heart than this: “God has not destined us for wrath, but to obtain salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us so that whether we are awake or asleep we might live with him”
(1 Thessalonians 5:9-10)?
God has designed this trial for my good and for your good. You can see this in 2 Corinthians 1:9, “Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.” And in 2 Corinthians 1:4-6, “He comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God . . . If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation.”
So I am praying: “Lord, for your great glory, 1) don’t let me miss any of the sanctifying blessings that you have for me in this experience; 2) don’t let the church miss any of the sanctifying blessings that you have for us in this; 3) grant that the surgery be successful in removing cancer and sparing important nerves; 4) grant that this light and momentary trial would work to spread a passion for your supremacy for the joy of all peoples through Jesus Christ; 5) may Noël and all close to me be given great peace—and all of this through the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever, Amen.” I hope God will lead you to pray in a similar way.
With deep confidence that
“Death is swallowed up in victory.
O death, where is your
victory?
O death, where is your sting.
The sting of death is sin, and
the power of sin is the law.
But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory
through our Lord Jesus Christ.”
1 Corinthians 15:54-57
Pastor John
With Sam Crabtree,
Lead Pastor for Life Training
Kenny Stokes, Lead Pastor for Spreading
Tim Johnson, Chairman of the Council of Elders
Ross Anderson, MD,
Bethlehem Elder
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Reading through the Bible This Year
Several of my children and I are going to read through the Bible together, this year. We've been encouraged from our Pastor and then we did some internet searches for different options. I really like the website, Back to the Bible, which has several options of reading it, We thought of reading it chronologically and have a chronological Bible, but then we landed on the One Year Bible Blog, and really like it. It is reading through the Bible starting in Genesis, but also starting in Matthew, and a chapter from the Psalms and Proverbs each day. The writer of the blog, Mike, gives good insights, and then has pictures and maps throughout his thoughts (yet, we are still to "prove all things"). He also has where you can click at the beginning of the day's readings, to actually read the verses on-line, and choose the version you want to read from.
We are excited about it. It's neat that I was the first one looking up on it, and reading different schedules, and then the kids one by one said they WANT to do it too, and WANT schedules!
I am also doing a reading through the New Testament with another woman and we each read the same chapter of the Bible, write down one thought or question about the reading, write out one verse from the reading, and writes down one prayer thought (request or praise). Then we e-mail each other with this information. It helps to keep each other accountable, and it takes only about five minutes a day.
I just thought I'd share this . . .maybe it will encourage someone else to do this with their children or individually. :)